His Suicides

His suicide
followed an earlier, incremental
suicide of the soul, a soul
converted, when young, to the belief
that suffering
must not be eased
but endured
as proof of faith
in God’s merciful plan,
a conviction he maintained, mercilessly,
into old age when he found
the wounds
of a lifetime of suffering
draining his heart, seemingly all at once,
of all faith, its chambers, finally,
empty as his gun’s.

About the Author

Mark Belair’s poems have appeared in numerous journals, including Alabama Literary Review, Atlanta Review, The Cincinnati Review, Harvard Review, Michigan Quarterly Review, Poetry East, and The South Carolina Review. His latest collection is Watching Ourselves (Unsolicited Press, 2017). Previous collections include Breathing Room (Aldrich Press, 2015); Night Watch (Finishing Line Press, 2013); While We’re Waiting (Aldrich Press, 2013); and Walk With Me (Parallel Press of the University of Wisconsin at Madison, 2012). He has been nominated for a Pushcart Prize multiple times. To view more of their work click below.