I Write From My Mother’s Last Two Hours of Life

in my imagination. I slept as she cried
out in pain a year ago, but now I live in a place

where the sun has risen—in theory. We’ve had sun

all week but today is the first turn in the weather:

the first time even the sky believes that the air

has changed into something less generous.

I write from my mother’s last moments too late.

There, I slept through the train screech every

ten minutes. Here, I wake to my neighbour

playing guitar. I’ve never heard him play

before. What makes it different for him?

What does he know about me? After all

those days of gorgeous sun, why does his

laundry sit on the line now? It’s going to rain.


About the Author

Abbie Langmead (she/they) is the neglected herb garden on your windowsill. First planted in Boston, Massachusetts, they’d try to set roots in Dublin, Ireland but there’s not enough light. Recent cuttings have been planted in Dyke Affair, FERAL: A Journal of Poetry and Art, Trace Fossil Review, and many others. She wants your leftover pasta water and for their leaves to be included in your future works.